Man I really let things slip...
Not in school. I got kicked out of my house. I lost my job. Girlfriend left for for some other guy, whom she had been cheating on me with. Then she gave me false hope and used me again. Am I a chump or what? I don't even have my PlayStation or a TV to drown out my life with, I had to sell them 'cos I owe my parents money.

Now I'm living with my parents again until I can find a new income, nowhere's hiring here though. What a drag. I guess I'm stuck for now.

Finally drawing again. It feels good to absorb myself in something. I just wish I was better at is I'll share when I get some stuff finished. I know I say that a lot. >.>

What do you do when your so angry that your scared? When your in love with someone you hate? When you cant stop the downward spiral and all you can think about is the negative things that keep you from moving on.
Why do I still care what shes doing, that shes moved on, why cant I let go? I cant get over this, it wouldn't be so bad if she hadn't intentionally messed around with me, but now I feel stuck in a permanent state of Depression. Its been months, why does it still ache?
...It probably doesn't help that I'm becoming reclusive, but all my local friends have been leaving anyways, soon I wont have anyone to go to at all.

Whatever, gotta think positive right?